How I first felt truly and freely in my life's flow
Today I felt for the first time in my life, I felt my purity in the GSR flow, my place…
I felt a wild desire to live the way I want to live, not the way I want to be loved or accepted…
I wanted to open up as much as possible and get to know myself even deeper and change myself even more…
I wanted to live my life in a completely new way…
I often wrote about my changes only through my children, how they gradually manifested in my life… but I practically never wrote about myself in my own life… about the possibility of being myself and living my life as myself…
I kept desperately putting on masks, looking for adjustments, studying this world and people in order to be the one they want to see… to live the way they want me to live… to play the games they want me to play…
And today I felt for the first time in my life…
to experience the joy of feeling that I have grown in my life's flow… that I have a self that I no longer define as good or bad…
Today I felt for the first time in my life, I felt my purity in the GSR flow, my place…
I felt a wild desire to live the way I want to live, not the way I want to be loved or accepted…
I wanted to open up as much as possible and get to know myself even deeper and change myself even more…
I wanted to live my life in a completely new way…
I often wrote about my changes only through my children, how they gradually manifested in my life… but I practically never wrote about myself in my own life… about the possibility of being myself and living my life as myself…
I kept desperately putting on masks, looking for adjustments, studying this world and people in order to be the one they want to see… to live the way they want me to live… to play the games they want me to play…
And today I felt for the first time in my life…
to experience the joy of feeling that I have grown in my life's flow… that I have a self that I no longer define as good or bad…